I love your heart. You are the Great Advocate! There is no one that can be more loyal, more encouraging and more “on my side” than you. You are willing to walk beside someone for a long time without giving up on them or having to make your agenda be realized. Even though you often see all the ways something won’t work first, once you are convinced there is nothing that can hold back your enthusiasm. You have the ability to bring a strength and protection on behalf of justice for others (and yourself). You have the ability to let your voice be heard, while also being a willing follower, supporting the person or mission at hand. Your commitment to the present moment is almost scary… and so needed. You help the world stay present while so many want to hide in the fleeting past or unreliable future.
It is when I need to face my greatest demons I turn to you. I know that you will honor me and stick with me no matter what. It is a relief to have someone who puts no expectations or pressure on me to move forward or to “get it right”. You are just here, smiling or frowning, in it with me, feeling my pain with me, fighting through it with me. It warms my heart to hear you speak about what and who you love. The great pride that wells up in you is like a great ocean of joy looking for ways to tumble out. The intensity is sometimes a vulnerable thing to receive, and when I can relax into it, it is a beautiful gift.
My hope for you is that you can learn to embrace your messiness and trust your own inner strength. The world is a topsy-turvy place and you and your loved ones will not be able to stay “safe” in every moment. Like someone who anxiously rushes to put everything in its place in an effort to declutter the house before guests arrive, it is an unending, exhausting task to exterminate all threats. Put down the broom, relax on the couch and rest a moment. See the beauty in the mess. See the opportunity in struggle. Look for the goodness in new and foreign things. Use some of that energy you use to plan your escape route and give your courage a chance. Instead of jumping to a preemptive conclusion of events, let things unfold knowing that you have what it takes to navigate whatever the path reveals.
Instead of pushing others away when things get tough, invite them closer. You have such high walls up! I know that oversharing often masquerades as vulnerability, and looking like you have it all together masquerades as confidence and hiding or attacking masquerades as justice or responsibility. These are all carefully honed masks, created to protect and disconnect. We want the real you! Let us in! Trust those who love you! We are after the real you.
You need to know dear friend, you are known and loved deeply right in the middle of your mess, your masks and your self-preservation. You are valuable beyond belief and yet you must learn to believe this. Quit putting others on a pedestal, you have a seat at this table so own it! It is the light that burns so fiercely inside of you that is so needed. Bring the weightiness of who you are to this table and let everyone else deal with it. You. Are. Worthy.