I WILL SEE YOU SOON
Series: Navigating Life in a Crisis
Look for the Green Shoots // What Are You Anchored To? // I Will See You Soon // Fail Enough to Succeed
I cried today. It felt good to release. It was only for twenty seconds or so. I didn’t know how sad I was until that moment. These tears sprung forth un-summoned, but I let them come, I did not stop the flow. I felt the burning, surging emotion come from deep within my chest and out through the hot tears.
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I was watching my kids play on their playset. Singing and laughing and climbing on all the parts that aren’t meant for climbing. It struck me how long it has been since my parents had seen their grandchildren. They have “seen” them through FaceTime and talked, but it is not the same. It is a gift in and of itself to feel the hugs and snuggles, to experience first hand the giggles and feel the electric energy as they run by.
I am so grateful to have a wife and three kids to snuggle, wrestle, laugh with and even argue with. It is a gift that I often take for granted. I am aware of and grieve with those who are currently socially distancing during this pandemic alone. It breaks my heart to think of those who are sick and being separated from loved ones. New fathers not allowed in the hospital rooms to witness the birth of their new baby. And so many other heart wrenching situations.
It surprises me how much I miss the physicality of connection. To feel the hugs, to shake a hand, a kind hand on a shoulder. The scent of my friend’s laundry detergent on their clothes or the familiar house-smell at my parent’s house. It is as if my senses are reaching out, looking for the familiar places and people my life consists of and are coming up short.
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So grieve with me. Cry with me. It hurts and it sucks. There are no easy answers. All we can do is wait, stay safe and hope for the future.
This is also what I began to think of: the amazing, planet-wide party the world is going to throw when this thing is over. It makes me think of the commercials or videos of a military person returning to their family after being gone for months. The hugs, tears, happy smiles and party that ensues after the long-awaited greeting of loved people separate for far too long. In my minds eye I see my kids grandparents’ faces, tears glistening, hugging the little squirmers tight, threatening to never let go. I feel my best friend’s arms around me, his bearded cheek against mine. I hear my wife’s voice and exclamations through hugs and tears with those she loves and has missed. All the people I love flash before me in a parade of relieved joy, celebrating that the fear is now over and we are free at last.
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My friend! I look forward to looking you straight in the eyes, pulling you close and holding you in a strong, loving embrace. I will see you soon.
Stay strong. Stay safe.